Taken The First Step

Well....It took me a while, but I finally took the first step. I've been wondering what i'd be writing about and didn't want to write an article until I had something substantial to write, and I finally do.

As of this morning, every file, picture and download of pornogrophy (including maxim maginzes, internet site downloads, and pictures) has been deleted/thrown away...For Good!

No more, that stuff was tieing me down, and preventing me from living - especially the parts that were of a certain girl - and it wasn't letting me move on.

The worst part of it, was how depressing it was, I'd have a hard day at school - so i'd turn to it, I'd get in a fight at home, i'd turn to it - or how about getting turned down flat just to go for coffee with a girl - well that was a big one too, course i'd turn to it. But the biggest one, whenever i'd talk to that girl (my ex) I would feel close and all of a sudden...bam she would say something to me, and i'd turn to it.

The truth about it, is it made me feel terrible, I felt like trash, I couldn't stand myself even tough I knew about it. I couldn't stand the looks of people who knew it must be happening, I couldn't stand talking to one girl at school who I thought was increadible but figured that she would think I was a looser because of it. And I couldn't look at myself in the mirror because I couldn't stand the sight of myself.

So it's GONE!

Now, does this fact mean I think porn is wrong? Yes, Yes, 1000 Times Yes! So some of you are saying "What the hell is he talking about??" Well, there's one simple reason why I think it's wrong - it turns women into objects that you want for personal gratification - and yes that's the one that everybody says but I've got a reason why.

When your young, as in when your 10 all you care about it dirt bikes, baseball and Nintendo. You wouldn't care if you saw a girl naked - infact you might think it was really gross.

So why do it when your older? Because it makes you feel good. And to be honest, why do you want to feel good if you can't get to know the girl - I always find that kind of stupid.

Next - what do you get out of it? One comedian even pointed out that the average person watches porn for 11 minutes top. What do you get out of it? I mean, ya you can have a "happy ending" at the end of it - but you can't even roll over and tell the girl thanks. You just turn off the screen. And in fact you start objectifying women - out on the street you might see them and be like "Damn I'd like to see her naked" Never mind that that girl is someones' Daughter, sister, wife, etc.

Think about that for a second. Say you have a daughter you want someone staring at her naked form? I justs made you wanna puke right? GOOD! Now manybe you can see why it's slightly gross.

And for me my biggest problem is - instead of getting to know people you just try to think if they would screw you and that's that.

So instead of staring at porn at night - read a book, figure out a plan, and deside how your going to go Get a girl who can be more then just a sex buddy - she can be a girlfriend/best friend/future you. Think about it.

Now, even though i've said all the above - i'm not perfect - and it's not to say i'm going to be strong enough to never turn to it again, but I'm gunna do my damnedest to keep away from it. So if you've got the stones (or even if you don't) see if you can follow my lead.